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steph chan



16 AT LAST !!
i like purple orange green brown black.
i am a happy gal
i like being happy !
i love all my friends.
what i crave for.
more money.
more skirts.
more black tops.
more green tops.
more earrings.
more clothes. more accesories.
new bag.
my tummy to slim down. HAHA!

shoppings.

forever 21.
zara.
warehouse.

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    Monday, October 31, 2005


    I heard you're doing ok
    But I want you to know
    I'm a dict I'm addicted to you
    I can't pretend I don't care
    When you don't think about me
    Do you think I deserve this?
    I tried to make you happy but you left anyway
    I'm trying to forget that I'm addicted to you
    But I want it and I need it
    I'm addicted to you
    Now it's over
    Can't forget what you said
    And I never wanna do this again
    Heartbreaker

    Since the day I met you
    And after all we've been through
    I'm still a dict I'm addicted to you
    I think you know that it's true
    I'd run a thousand miles to get you
    Do you think I deserve this?
    I tried to make you happy
    I did all that I could Just to keep you
    But you left anyway
    How long will I be waiting?
    Until the end of time?
    I don't know why I'm still waiting
    I can't make you mine
    Heartbreaker I'm addicted to you

    <3 10:00 AM

    Saturday, October 29, 2005


    it was the 28th ytd.
    sigh.
    aft school.
    met kj n fedrick. PLUS euphi opposite school.
    me n sara went tm with them.
    hmmm.
    kj fed n euphi went town
    zen came along.
    left me zen n sara.
    :)
    *light bulb me*
    hahas.
    den we went ard everywhere.
    sigh.
    ppl ard me are happy now.
    BIG sigh.
    i wanna be happy too.
    but i am happy ytd.
    aft tm.
    ard 5plus.
    went -her- workplace.
    well.
    am just happy ytd with -her- la.
    glad she was able to meet me.
    yup.
    had dinner.
    den some fucking irritating person call n nag at me.
    like WTF ?
    m so pissed.

    sigh sigh sigh.
    BIG BIG sigh.
    anyway.
    thanks for lending me ure shoulder in the bus last night.
    am so happy.
    am so glad.
    lending me your shoulder ?
    is enough.
    i'm more den happy.
    esp when you put your arms ard me n say.
    dont worry.
    i'm still here for you.
    it makes a difference to my life now.
    i'm just glad you din forget me just like tt.
    at least i noe you still care for a fren like me.
    BIG thanks.
    :)

    <3 2:45 PM

    Wednesday, October 26, 2005


    took a nap in the evening.
    had a dream.
    it was terribly terrible.
    sigh
    :'(

    <3 9:05 PM


    ytd had a LAME day.
    sara moi- you n i only know y hor.
    *sHHhhhhhhhS*
    dont tell ppl k.
    our lil secret. HAHA
    :)
    hmmms.
    met her bung fren at east point.
    LAME !-_-
    yeah.
    friday is *WEAR WHAT YOU LIKE DAY*
    whooo.
    sexy.
    heh heh.
    mia might come over to stay on thursday.
    :)

    <3 12:00 PM

    Monday, October 24, 2005


    rock climbing today.
    like SUPER fun.
    but injured myself a lil lah.
    hmmm.
    legs are aching.
    palms are so painful lah.
    *SCREAMSsss*
    uh well.
    had fun there.
    n the ppl there are like so cool ?
    FUN.
    super!
    tt was half the day.
    was happy for half the day.
    daylight i'm a happy girl.
    cos i have ALL my frens dere for me.
    thanks mia.
    you've brightened up my day.
    i'm glad i've pour out everything to you.
    i'm really glad i did.
    wad you said makes alot of sense.
    thanks.
    but after that ?
    mia.
    tell me.
    wad am i suspose to do when i'm all alone ?
    when i'm all alone in my room ?
    when everyone is sleeping.
    i'm tired but i just cant bring myself to sleep.
    sigh.
    she's a happy girl now.
    i must be too right ?
    i dont understand.
    i cant bring myself to smile when i'm all alone.
    but why she can ?
    can i pls be strong like her ?
    i wanna be strong.
    but y is it so hard ?
    why is everything becoming the way i dont wan it to be?

    * your smile is the key to my life now. pls dont disappoint me. all i need is your smile to stay alive. *

    <3 11:40 PM

    Sunday, October 16, 2005


    Do you ever think about me?
    Do you ever cry yourself to sleep
    In the middle of the night when you're awake,
    Are you calling out for me?
    Do you ever reminisce?
    I can't believe I'm acting like this.
    I know it's crazy.
    How I still can feel your kiss.

    It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours Since you went away.
    I miss you so much and I don't know what to say.
    I should be over you.
    I should know better but it's just not the case.
    It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours Since you went away.

    Do you ever ask about me?
    Do your friends still tell you what to do?
    Every time the phone rings,
    Do you wish it was me calling you?
    Do you still feel the same?
    Or has time put out the flame?
    I miss you Is everything okay?
    It's hard enough just passing the time.
    When I can't seem to get you off my mind.
    And where is the good in goodbye?
    Tell me why, tell me why.

    Repeat 1
    Sing it for me Ooh, ooh…

    <3 8:45 PM

    Saturday, October 15, 2005


    How can I forget you when your always on my mind? How can I not want you when your all I want inside? How can I let you go when I can't see us apart? How can I not love you when you control my heart?
    you sounded serious this time.
    you NEVER did say the word break in our whole r/s.
    it always happens to be me asking for break.
    i always say things w/o thinking. you should noe tt.
    but as for you?
    i noe you mean it when you say break.
    it's over.
    our once happy fairytale ended here.
    our future?
    our dreams?
    our hopes?
    our future of staying togther?
    our dreams of having a pair of dogs?
    our hopes to take a perfect couple picture?
    it's gone.
    just like tt.
    i cant accept the fact tt i put in so much in this r/s n it all ends here.
    i guess the stuff tt you wanted to talk to be abt after exams is all these.
    all these breaking up n letting go.
    i noe you'll be happy still.
    you've got so many things better to do.
    better den keep quarrelling over the phone everyday.
    here's my promise to you.
    ilove you now.
    n i always will.
    if you need me.
    i'll always be here.
    this is the only thing i can do for you now.
    you said once bitten twice shy.
    you got hurt so badly in the r/s b4 me.
    i'm like the you last time now.
    you noe you'd never put in ure all in this r/s.
    so why did you even say you love me so much?
    why did you give me false hopes ?
    will you ever noe how i feel ?
    will you ever noe how it feels like when you put in so much n hope for a better future for both of us n it goes down the drain?
    will you ever noe how it feels like when everything goes wrong for you?
    will you ever noe what it really is like when you love someone so deep n the person never love you back?
    will you ever noe ?
    you once said.
    i'll love you forever.
    i promise.
    i'll never let you go.
    only if you let me go i'll let you go too.
    you make me never get into another r/s again.
    cos now i noe.
    love is never forever.
    as for the promises you made?
    you never did fulfil it.
    only afew.
    yeah.
    promises are meant to be broken.
    is tt wad ure gonna say next?
    i'll agree with you.
    true love n promises NEVER will exist in my life ever.
    i noe sometime i go over the extent to make you so fucking angry.
    i'm sorry.
    sorry means nothing to you now.
    cos ure tired of all these.
    ure tired n fustrated of wadever i say.
    am i right?
    i accept the fact tt you scream at me over the phone sometimes.
    i accept the fact tt you shout vulgarities over the phone sometimes.
    n i also accept the fact tt ure feelings faded for me.
    but i did nothing.
    i noe it's partially my fault tt all these happen.
    BUT I DID NOTHING !!!!!!!!!
    you wanna noe y?
    cos i dont wanna lose someone so special like you.
    someone who treats me so well.
    someone who can make me smile silly-ly at myself.
    someone who says iloveyou n will make me melt.
    someone who actually cares for me?
    someone who i love so fucking much.
    i really thot everything will be better aft my exams.
    BUT IT'S FUCKING WORST !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    i hate love.
    i hate it.
    you make me hate to love another again.
    i will never let myself get serious again.
    NEVER.
    generation gap?
    maybe what you say makes sense.
    i guess i wont be seeing you on thursday.
    or not anymore i guess.
    it all is my fault.
    for letting ure feelings fade for me.
    you said you'll try to bring it back.
    whatever i say is useless now.
    once ure feelings fade for another.
    it's DAMN hard to bring it back.
    be happy.
    n i'll try to be too.
    i'm sorry.
    i'm really am.
    forgive me.

    <3 8:05 PM

    Saturday, October 08, 2005


    what goes around comes around.
    what goes up must come down.

    <3 9:45 PM

    Thursday, October 06, 2005


    okay.
    i'm like so lazy to blog these days.
    exams started alrd.
    yeahs.
    shant update these few days lah.
    BEV !!!!!!
    thanks for ure letter.
    you look so PRETTY !
    ilovelovemy BESTIE.

    alright.
    thats all.
    bye toots.

    <3 7:43 PM